Untold Untruths
Mike Wozowski is gobsmacked for good reason.
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Saturday, October 15
Disappointment
Angeline asked me in church today whether the results for the MPH competition were out. I told her I didn't know, but they should be out this month. Grace, who was also there, told me that the polls were already out. The winner got 900+ votes; I got 18.
18 votes. Would that mean I only have 18 friends who care? 18 people out of the 46 in my class? 18 out of all the people I told about my essay? 18 out of the God-knows-how-many votes Seng Yoon claimed he was getting for me?
18 votes. 18 fucking votes. Is that how much people care about me? Is that how much my essay is worth?
I nearly cried when I was on the back-up team. I don't think I had ever known true disappointment until today. It hurt so much.
And now Cow is mad at me for being mad. I think I'm mad at him for being such a stupid boyfriend.
18 votes. Would that mean I only have 18 friends who care? 18 people out of the 46 in my class? 18 out of all the people I told about my essay? 18 out of the God-knows-how-many votes Seng Yoon claimed he was getting for me?
18 votes. 18 fucking votes. Is that how much people care about me? Is that how much my essay is worth?
I nearly cried when I was on the back-up team. I don't think I had ever known true disappointment until today. It hurt so much.
And now Cow is mad at me for being mad. I think I'm mad at him for being such a stupid boyfriend.